Saturday, January 30, 2010

Bang!(s)

From the time I was in high school, New Year's has been my favorite holiday. My friends and I used to gather around at Jessie's house and watch a movie before switching over to see that giant diamond ball drop in Rockefeller Square. We never kissed each other; instead we all ran outside and a had a massive blood bath snowball fight. Due to my size, I was always harrassed and singled out. I guess I must've seemed like easy pickin's. But I ended up earning quite a name for myself and became quite the terror in the snow, the culmination of my battle skills being shown when I threw a 6'4'' Hungarian over my shoulder in the snow and proceeded to white wash him. HAH!
Once I started going to college, New Years died down for me. Even though I would keep up my tradition of wearing something sparkly and fluffy, and crimping my hair, I found myself with nowhere to go, no one to be with. My friends in college had all gone home for the holidays and were spending a well earned break with their own families. My sisters had their own friends to be with, and my high school friends were all getting married and had their own plans. This year I ended up watching the ball drop alone in my living room. But as that sparkling giant bubble fell down, I felt this strange sense of relief and excitement. I thought 'hey, 2009 was tough... let it rot! This is a new year, a new decade! This is it; this is my go year. 'And I've felt that way ever since. I decided it was time for me to make some changes. Mostly in my social life, but I had also felt the need for some physical TLC as well. So I went and had my hair cut. It started out as a typical trim with more defined layers, but suddenly I got daring and had my hair dresser cut BANGS! It's amazing to me how something so seemingly inconsequencial could have such an impact on my self image. It's like having a super power! I feel like I'm thinner, stronger and prettier. All because of a couple cut folicles in front of my face. But this is just the beginning. My new found self confidence has led me to feel like my instincts were correct: this truly is the GO year.